Da Weekend

I have not had a chance or been energized enough to blog this weekend. Okay, so when I said it was goin’ down on Friday night (Brown Suga Friday) it went down. We had a ball! WE had some drinks…danced….laugh and had a marvelous time.

So on Saturday I could barely walk…I had danced so much my legs didn’t know what to do with themselves. So guess what? Friday coming is ROUND 2!!! I am so excited I don’t know what to do.

I will keep you all posted!

Holla!!!

Non-Drivin Azz Folks!

So okay – I will admit that I was in a pissy bad mood the other day when I went to Food Lion. I was my cell talking to HoneyBee and I see this truck with the reverse lights on. So I think I have enough time to pass *and I did* and this fool waves at me to hurry and walk by. So I am walking but, my keys drop right out of my hand *happens often in movies* and hits the ground. So of course I know stupido saw me bend down to get my dayum keys. Well his stupid azz proceeds to come back while I am trying to retrieve my keys.. so I say, “Aey! Don’t you see me?” and he gives me this wack azz smirk like whatever ladi. So I start to walk *over course slowly because I am pissed about my near death experience j/k* So I pass the truck and he rolls down the window and I am like. “WHAT!!, Stupid non-drivin folks around here!” and this idiot laughs @ me. I wanted to deck’em.. so word to the wise – if you drop something in a parking lot or have to pass a car – PLEASE make sure there are no idiots around that just don’t care if they he someone or not.

Fancy Fridays

So, it’s Freaky Fancy Friday and I am going out tonight with the ladies. It’s been a while since I’ve went out and I’m all hyped up because I know that I am going to have a dayum good time ball! I am wearing that outfit that I brought yesterday. I reminded Mr. B that I was going out tonight and he looked surprise like this is the first he heard of me going. I’m thinking to myself, “hear we go..” but, he didn’t trip he is cool. He said he would like to come. Again. I told him ladies only. He understood. I’m goin to put pics up here of me and the ladies night out and yall tell me what you think! holla

Watch Out Naa!

Your girl - Candi is finally getting serious about her model thing and losing weight. Now I must say that I am not doing it completely by the book but I am watching what I eat. Exercising and drinking water. Besides the occasional sweet or unsweet tea and diet WILD CHERRY pepsi. It is my weakness!

So I went to the store this morning and I was looking for an outfit to wear out wit my girls tommorrow night. So I know that I've been losing weight (everyone @ work is telling me and the famo) so I went over to the Baby Phat line...I was bold when I even did that because you know I'm a plus sized DIVA and Baby Phat has Plus sizes but they are not the TRUE plus sizes that you may find at Ashley Stewart or Torrid.

So I see these nice...Jeans wit the babyphat cat on the back pocket and this nice shirt to match. I get 1 size smaller then the norm in the shirt and 2 sizes smaller then the norm in the pants and I am thinking yeah right! You didnt lose that much weight yet. I really wanted those SKINNY jeans to wear with my boots and I didnt think they would look good on me. But, I say unto thee WATCH OUT NAA! LADIES KEEP YO MAN @ HOME (just kiddin - i'm taken)!! lmao! I got the booty lookin lovely and them thick thighs mesmerize....Mr. B loves it ~ it is goin down!
I feels good. For once I am putting me first. It's lovely...but I dont know how many of these name brand clothes I will be buying because the jeans were 59.99 and I brought TWO PAIRS and the shirt 39.99.....what the hell was I thinkin' I know I was thinkin REWARD for Candi! Good Job for doing the damn thing

About LA

So when we moved to CT in 2004. We lost touch with a good friend. For privacy I will call him LA. Well, you know I have nothing to hide so we talk and text and stuff and I like it. I like having someone to talk to besides the regular peeps that I talk to. So I am planning a vacation and I want to visit New Orleans,LA and LA lives in Lake Charles,LA. So I brought it to Mr. B attention that WE were invited to go but, he doesnt have any vacation time so I still wanted to go. OMG! Why did I do that....you would think I asked him can I go there and live with our friend. He flew off the deep end. So I have a vacation coming up and somewhere to go but, will have drama on top of drama if I proceed with my plans.
Oh - I forgot to mention that LA is single. He's is getting back into the dating scene and I guess that is a reason that Mr. B feels uneasy. But, to me it tells me you don't trust me or your friend. Right> Right> So, if there are any ladies looking for a good man, holla at and maybe I can hook you up. He's a good guy.

Drama in St. Louis

Me & St. Louis – We (My best friend – Sailor girl and her husband – St. Louis and there 3 children AND my family) all hang out together every weekend usually. We usually have the children playing or something while we are playing board games or watching a movie. So there was a argument between me and Mr. B and the main point in the argument was about how he treats me and how he lets other (his boys) treat me. So word gets back to St. Louis that I said he was disrespectful to me and what not and he (St. Louis) goes off the chain! There was no beef…..no drama or nothing – it was just a convo between me and Mr. B – so you know I didn’t share it with St. Louis. I knew he was mad so I called him when his wife showed up for Busybee bday party and this is how that went:

 

St. Louis: Hello! your friend is not here.

Me: Well, I know that I was calling for you

St. Louis: I am not trying to be rude but I don’t want to talk to you.

Me: Okay that’s fine (I’m thinking – your loss!)

St. Louis: Okay – Bye…*click*

 

So I dropped the issue I was not goin to chase him down and begggggg him to talk to me or be my friend. Real is real – I felt that way and oh, well! Everything you do everyone is not going to like. Point à blank!

 

That day he texted:

St. Louis: I’m done and that’s real. I love my friend (he stated his real name) and if me being disrespectful to his wife causes problems in his household I want no part of that. So we don’t have to have any contact. If I want to speak to him I will call his cell and if I want to hang out with him I’ll meet him some where.

Me: If that’s what you wanna do that’s fine with me. I thought I knew you better then that. I must have been a fool to have my children call you uncle and you acting like this. Best wishes to you.

St. Louis: Best wishes to u. me better than that look at yourself. I speak  to u and your kids disrespectfully *sidenote* I never said me and my kids – I said at times he speaks that way to me and is harder on my Busybee then any of the other children. CONTINUE TEXT: Come on and that your sister talkin bs. I can fix itt all I don’t come where u r and it will be cool no disrespect will happen.

 

Meanwhile, he is still constantly speaking with my husband, Mr. B and all of that.

So yesterday, I am laying on the couch and my Blackberry buzzes – so I look at the screen and I have a text from St. Louis.

 

Text reads: Ms. Brown (? I’m married – was he tryin to be funny?) Ms. Brown, I am over everything. I feel that if you felt that I was so disrespectful to u and your kid(???) u should have checked me at that time. So if we ever get together I will not say anything to your child I will ask his mom or dad to take care of it. And I will be very careful with my words I say to you. What ever the out come of this I’m cool with.

 

My response: Like Anthony Hamilton says if you’re cool then I’m cool then were cool. 1.

 

Gotta get Real! Me & Mr. B

Okay – I need to get some things off my chest. At first when I started this blog I was not sure how much of my life I wanted to reveal but, now I am just going to use my blog as a way to express how I feel, vent and talk about lifes success, trails and tribulations. So here we go…

Where do I start?

Okay, so lately there has been drama and I am totally about to lose it. First, Mr. B and I aren’t doing that well, Me and St. Louis aren’t friends anymore and I think that my feelings are all screwed up when it comes to other associates in my life. I will discuss one thing at a time:

 

MR.B & I – We have been married for coming up 9 years this June 09. We wed very early. Let me start off by saying that I love Mr. B but, I have noticed that for the time that we have been together that I have constantly been putting everyone else in front of myself. So now I have decided to make myself top priority (not leaving the kids out) but, “DOING ME!” and he can’t stand that. At times he can be very controlling and demanding and I feel like he treats me like a child. Well, I will not have it anymore – so I told him that I thought we should go our separate ways …… *silence* he thought I was kidding. I shared with him that I would hate for it to have to end up that way but, I have been sharing my concerns about our relationship for a long time and he has not even attempted to address the issue with me. I told him that there are things that I expect to receive out of our marriage and relationship…and I was not getting them.

Well, he was really upset that this was my choice for us to separate and that we should try counseling of something. So me being me - I say sure – we can try so at least I can say that I have truly done everything to help save my marriage. He previously asked If I was cheating on him and the answer is no BUT, that is not the reason we are having issues anyway. It is us – we are growing apart. I want to go out and do things and he is a home body. That is so boring…sitting at home all the time. So as of now we are working on getting counseling and I must say if it doesn’t work that we may have to go our separate ways. I hate to have to do that  - especially for the children sake.