Gotta get Real! Me & Mr. B

Okay – I need to get some things off my chest. At first when I started this blog I was not sure how much of my life I wanted to reveal but, now I am just going to use my blog as a way to express how I feel, vent and talk about lifes success, trails and tribulations. So here we go…

Where do I start?

Okay, so lately there has been drama and I am totally about to lose it. First, Mr. B and I aren’t doing that well, Me and St. Louis aren’t friends anymore and I think that my feelings are all screwed up when it comes to other associates in my life. I will discuss one thing at a time:

 

MR.B & I – We have been married for coming up 9 years this June 09. We wed very early. Let me start off by saying that I love Mr. B but, I have noticed that for the time that we have been together that I have constantly been putting everyone else in front of myself. So now I have decided to make myself top priority (not leaving the kids out) but, “DOING ME!” and he can’t stand that. At times he can be very controlling and demanding and I feel like he treats me like a child. Well, I will not have it anymore – so I told him that I thought we should go our separate ways …… *silence* he thought I was kidding. I shared with him that I would hate for it to have to end up that way but, I have been sharing my concerns about our relationship for a long time and he has not even attempted to address the issue with me. I told him that there are things that I expect to receive out of our marriage and relationship…and I was not getting them.

Well, he was really upset that this was my choice for us to separate and that we should try counseling of something. So me being me - I say sure – we can try so at least I can say that I have truly done everything to help save my marriage. He previously asked If I was cheating on him and the answer is no BUT, that is not the reason we are having issues anyway. It is us – we are growing apart. I want to go out and do things and he is a home body. That is so boring…sitting at home all the time. So as of now we are working on getting counseling and I must say if it doesn’t work that we may have to go our separate ways. I hate to have to do that  - especially for the children sake.